A girl who is on the way to define herself

Growing up means growing apart. It’s time for me to accept that. It’s better than holding things that are not yours anymore.
I will stop trying, fixing things. 
I will stop being nice, friendly, willing to help all the time.
I will be just normal.
In the long run, time and life will show us all. It’s the lesson of who is worth your care, who is not.
So sorry if in this stage of my life, seeing things falling apart, I was so scared that I gave you subtext, blamed you on things that you didn’t do.
I make a decision and I move on

Growing up means growing apart. It’s time for me to accept that. It’s better than holding things that are not yours anymore.

I will stop trying, fixing things. 

I will stop being nice, friendly, willing to help all the time.

I will be just normal.

In the long run, time and life will show us all. It’s the lesson of who is worth your care, who is not.

So sorry if in this stage of my life, seeing things falling apart, I was so scared that I gave you subtext, blamed you on things that you didn’t do.

I make a decision and I move on

I’ve dreamed a dream. Wonder if I will ever ever make it ?

I’ve dreamed a dream. Wonder if I will ever ever make it ?


When you are important to a person, that person will ALWAYS find a way to make time for you. NO EXCUSES, regardless of how busy they are.

“Best Quotes”
An I-told-you-so story :)

When you are important to a person, that person will ALWAYS find a way to make time for you. NO EXCUSES, regardless of how busy they are.

“Best Quotes”

An I-told-you-so story :)

Really ?

Really ?

It’s hart to breathe, to get out of bed today.So I spent my whole day lying on my bed, watching every memorable clips in my laptop and thinking…
I think about people around me. It’s amazing how I have grown up. People brought out parts of me that I had no clue existed. People hurt me incredibly that it seemed unbearable to go on with my life, but the truth is I can overcome anything if I want to. “Everything will be okay in the end”. Some broke me, some supported me all the time. Everyone that ever appeared in my life played a significant role in what I am today. So even if I love you or hate you, I should be thankful to you for everything.
I think about my major, my future. Economics or Finance sounds absurd to me. And I am majoring in Finance. Don’t know what will I do with this degree. These days, I am crazily madly deeply in love with the English language again. I spent my day reading all of my friends’ note on FB (yeah there are such great writers, to me), all of things I have ever written and some fascinating stuffs on tumblr. I love how words can convey the writers’ feeling and emotion, how they makes my heart beat fast by those little words.
I think about my family. So much is going on and I don’t know where I am heading to. I am the one who never get satisfied with what I have got. At times, I want to do something meaningful for my family. But some keeps saying “painful” words so I cancel everything.
I think about tomorrow. I think about you. I think about us. I think about what people said to me. I think about what I have and haven’t done. I think about everything
Today, my thought is my only friend

“How can something be less than nothing? If there were something that was less than nothing, then nothing would not be nothing, it would be something - even though it’s just a very little bit of something. But if nothing is nothing, then nothing has nothing that is less than it is.” From my favorite character.

It’s hart to breathe, to get out of bed today.

So I spent my whole day lying on my bed, watching every memorable clips in my laptop and thinking…

I think about people around me. It’s amazing how I have grown up. People brought out parts of me that I had no clue existed. People hurt me incredibly that it seemed unbearable to go on with my life, but the truth is I can overcome anything if I want to. “Everything will be okay in the end”. Some broke me, some supported me all the time. Everyone that ever appeared in my life played a significant role in what I am today. So even if I love you or hate you, I should be thankful to you for everything.

I think about my major, my future. Economics or Finance sounds absurd to me. And I am majoring in Finance. Don’t know what will I do with this degree. These days, I am crazily madly deeply in love with the English language again. I spent my day reading all of my friends’ note on FB (yeah there are such great writers, to me), all of things I have ever written and some fascinating stuffs on tumblr. I love how words can convey the writers’ feeling and emotion, how they makes my heart beat fast by those little words.

I think about my family. So much is going on and I don’t know where I am heading to. I am the one who never get satisfied with what I have got. At times, I want to do something meaningful for my family. But some keeps saying “painful” words so I cancel everything.

I think about tomorrow. I think about you. I think about us. I think about what people said to me. I think about what I have and haven’t done. I think about everything

Today, my thought is my only friend

“How can something be less than nothing? If there were something that was less than nothing, then nothing would not be nothing, it would be something - even though it’s just a very little bit of something. But if nothing is nothing, then nothing has nothing that is less than it is.” From my favorite character.

Đôi khi thấy mọi thứ ở rất xa, mọi người cũng ở rất xa.
Định giơ tay ra nhờ sự giúp đỡ nhưng rồi lại thôi, tự mình làm có lẽ vẫn tốt hơn.

Đôi khi thấy mọi thứ ở rất xa, mọi người cũng ở rất xa.

Định giơ tay ra nhờ sự giúp đỡ nhưng rồi lại thôi, tự mình làm có lẽ vẫn tốt hơn.

Người vô tâm dù có nhận ra mình vô tâm thì vẫn là người vô tâm mà thôi.
When I put my trust on the wrong person again.
I once think this time it gonna be different. But life shows me that it’s still the same. I am not a part-time or second choice but one of thousands options. How many times should I tell people about pre-informing ? 
Twice, to me, is enough. So sorry that I don’t trust you like I used to.

Người vô tâm dù có nhận ra mình vô tâm thì vẫn là người vô tâm mà thôi.

When I put my trust on the wrong person again.

I once think this time it gonna be different. But life shows me that it’s still the same. I am not a part-time or second choice but one of thousands options. How many times should I tell people about pre-informing ? 

Twice, to me, is enough. So sorry that I don’t trust you like I used to.

"You are still my person, even though I am not yours"

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Grey’s Anatomy 8x24. 

All of the TV-series’s fan shed a tear on this finale, I guess. The scariest episode ever  :-ss

I still can’t get over my Grey’s Anatomy feelings. I can’t get over Lexie dying. I can’t get over them being stranded in the middle of nowhere. I can’t get over the fact that they are bleeding, injured, close to dying and miserable. I’m wondering how the others are gonna react to Lexie’s death. I really want to know what happens if not I won’t be able to get over all these GA emotions I’m having. 

“Freakincrazy’s tumblr”

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Cho những gì đã qua cho những gì sẽ đến và cho những người thân yêu.

Một tách cafe mỗi lúc buồn liệu có đủ để làm ta ấm lòng?

Có khi nào giữa những bộn bề của cuộc sống, ta lặng nhìn ngắm lại những điều đã qua.

Có khi nào giữa những giọt nước mắt của người xung quanh, ta thấy mình trong đó nhưng đứng im không nói nên lời.

Cuộc sống luôn tàn nhẫn dù ta tốt hay xấu đi chăng nữa.

Có người sẵn sàng rời bỏ ta lúc ta cần họ nhất.

Có người lại không giấu nổi sự vui mừng trước nỗi buồn của người khác.

Có người cứ đôi lần xuất hiện đủ để làm tim ta nhói đau … rồi lại biến mất.

Có những bóng hình cứ mãi mãi ám ảnh không biết bao giờ có thể xóa nhòa được.

Có những giận hờn vu vơ, những âu lo toan tính để tạo nên một chút “cuộc đời”.

Ai chuyện gì rồi cũng sẽ có cách giải quyết.

Điều quan trọng là liệu ta có đủ mạnh mẽ để quyết định hay không?

Một lần vấp ngã là một lần đứng lên đi tiếp, ta thấy mình trưởng thành hơn rất nhiều sau những giọt nước mắt, để thấy mình mạnh mẽ hơn sau những lần đứng lên đó.

Ta không cần sự quan tâm của cả thế giới, không cần ánh mắt thương hại của mọi người, không để tâm đến niềm vui của những kẻ chẳng ra gì. Nhưng ta cần một khuôn mặt thân quen để lắng nghe, một bờ vai để dựa dẫm khi yếu mềm, một trái tim để hiểu dù đôi khi không nói lên lời, một bàn tay sẵn sàng kéo ta đứng lên.

 Một chút vậy thôi liệu có bao giờ là đủ ?

I guess I never hate somebody that much. I never get this angry at something which seemingly doesn’t affect me at all.
OMG you were sad. You were miserable. You were innocent. “Nowadays innocence is in short supply. If you don’t have the face, stop pretending”
Don’t act ridiculously like a “tail-wagger” and think that you are divine.
I am sick of all of that.
Publicly I hate you to the core!

I guess I never hate somebody that much. I never get this angry at something which seemingly doesn’t affect me at all.

OMG you were sad. You were miserable. You were innocent. “Nowadays innocence is in short supply. If you don’t have the face, stop pretending”

Don’t act ridiculously like a “tail-wagger” and think that you are divine.

I am sick of all of that.

Publicly I hate you to the core!


Just because I am here all the time doesn’t mean you can take me for granted.


I have too much free time. I am always available. 
Does that make people take me for granted ? 
I am allergic to the answer no.
I don’t like entreating people to go somewhere with me or at least talk to me.
The bottom line is, I should learn to do my favorite things alone independently.

Just because I am here all the time doesn’t mean you can take me for granted.

I have too much free time. I am always available. 

Does that make people take me for granted ? 

I am allergic to the answer no.

I don’t like entreating people to go somewhere with me or at least talk to me.

The bottom line is, I should learn to do my favorite things alone independently.

Nevermind me :)

Nobody matters that much.
Someday, for some reason, or even without any reason, they all will leave me

Nobody matters that much.

Someday, for some reason, or even without any reason, they all will leave me

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For the first time in my life, I hate Holiday.

Like the whole world is collapsing.

Just my whole word.

I had a terribly tired day of trying and trying. Trying to make the best of me, to complete everything alone, to find sb to comfort me, to make people stop judging. Some day I may regret this but I hate living in this traditionally big family.  

In the end of the day, I received little support (yeah but it was written from a girl who is too worried abt her special one).

Maybe I am back to my old habit of not being able to control my feeling. Lying down, watching my favorite TV-series and crying for no reason.

Sometimes, I feel like the creator made the main character based on me (or I am living, thinking or seeing the world like her?). Sometimes, I wish to have a “Yang” besides me when I am tired and disappointed. At least, if she is scared, she can lean on the door, talk to me through it. She will not keep my hope high and then destroy it.

Hey, it’s too much for a day. All the thoughts are flying in my mind and I am tired of conveying into words.